I view my life like a book full of chapters. Some are chapters I am ready for, plan for and some are ones I don’t know the meaning of until well into it and wonder if it will ever end. I have tried rushing the pages and turning them only to realize that it unfolds at it’s own pace. There have been times when I took risks (like shipping my belongings to California and booking a one-way ticket) and times when I played it safe. This next chapter I am very excited about. These last few months I have made changes that have me feeling like I stopped chasing the wrong things to make time for the right things. Things I did not even have in my dreams. Whereas many times I thought I was alone and on my own in this chapter I am surrounded by so many! In many regards the saying “sometimes things need to fall apart to fall back together again” is the theme of this chapter.
Every day my feet hit the ground and I look forward to taking on the day and seeing the people who fill it. When I am at track meets, baseball, soccer, basketball, etc. I am present. I am not thinking of everything else on my plate. Instead of 24 spinning plates I am working on paring it down to just a few. I am picking the most important plates. What do I really want to spend my time doing and who do I want it to be with.
This goes for my work as well. The year has seen the birth of a new website, a promise to myself to take stock in the art that up-lifts me and go for it. It means turning down opportunities that I know are just not for me. This year also has seen a direction that I never even had in mind…….licensing my work.
But in it all……..there is doing what I love, being passionate about what I do and loving the family that grounds me every day. So is my artwork on a calendar, greeting card, mugs?…….not yet. But I use the word yet because……we have to see what unfolds in the next chapter. That in itself is worth waiting for.
Live a life you are proud of. In the end, your greatest fear should not be of failure, but of succeeding at things that don’t matter to you. We never tell ourselves that we will never live our dreams. Instead we just keep talking about how we will start living our dreams tomorrow.”